LOVE AIN'T WHAT THAT IS

I apologize ahead of time if you read it...

Love Ain't What That Is

I hate her

I regret the day I approached her

I thought of crying all night when she left

she committed heart theft

somebody who took all she could/ but didn't give me shit in return

so she a bitch in return

I hope she burn... as I did inside

when she decided not to ride... Or die...

I hate that I even tried

her beautiful lips told the ugliest lies.

I hate her.

But shh I dont blame you,

I felt the pain too

from chick in the past.. who didn't make it last

and your ex's were hateful cats

ungrateful cats

and I paid for the damage they caused

And still through it all, I was there for you.

Damn I almost married you!

And I guess your curse was my blessing in disguise

A test in my eyes, to fill me with cries

and enough pain to make me realize

that love ain't what that is.

*Im Done venting...*

DAMN

ITS HARD ENOUGH THAT WE ARGUE, BUT YOU MAKE IT HARDER NOT WANTING TO BE WITH ME...SINGLE WAS MY THING AND I LOVED IT, BUT WHEN YOU HAVE FOUND SOMEONE YOU FEEL AS IF SINGLE COULD GO AWAY AND IDE BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T GOING TO BE IT AGAIN. I cant help it if i have been hurt in the past, shh!!! If i never had a reason to feel the same about you, you would never hear about the shh...im just rambling on and on....but shit...I dont know what else to do...

Past Relationships

Lets See Ummm...Past Relationships...

To be quite Honest if you had more then one past relationship then one of them must have gone completely wrong...am I right? Somebody may have cheated or you both argued every hour on the hour about stuff that one of you thought was minor, but the other thought was major. One of the main things may be if someone was a "player" back in the day you may be afraid to trust that person completely. No matter how many times they tell you they're not a player "now" their past you just can't let go. Or the main one is when you've been hurt in the past and vow to never be hurt again... Or maybe you were beaten by your last dude/female and him or her mistreated you daily to the point to where you couldnt take it no more...

I feel that, But you have to forgive and forget. I will never let a past relationship shape the type of person I am. We are all taught to never let anyone run our lives, so why would I let an ex run mine?? I have been cheated on in the worse way but its those things that helps you learn from your mistakes. I'm in the best relationship I've ever been in and regardless of my past I've given my trust to my girl and just hope for the best and i will get the best. But I know a lot people who tell me "well he/she hurt me to bad", and "I will never put myself out there anymore" Im just like grow the UP... Life is never going to be easy for anyone, so why should there be an exception for you?? If you put a 110% into something then you never know you might get 120% back...

The Longer you hold on to the past, the longer it will take you to find something thats good for your future. Not saying that you completely forget your pass because its the past in which makes who we are in the presence, but hold no grudges. I know what your thinking its not that easy but to forgive is to set you free. I don't know about you but being Free is the best feeling in the world and I'm there like STATE FARM....

Nice Guys Finish LAST

Lets See ummm....Nice Guys DO finish LAST....

• OK, OK, OK..... I used to be a nice guy...I know its hard to believe now but I used to be the guy who would sit back and let a girl run who I am. If I couldn't get with a girl who I intended to be with I would be down for awhile and I would hate her instead of being her friend. But then times changed and I changed, Its as if my time to shine had come forth and I stopped putting in the effort, unless the girl I was trying to get with would. Also, the same girl I wanted to get with tried to talk to me....WTF?? SO if I be mean to her and treat her like she treats me then she will want to talk to me???? HOW THE HELL... SO If I'm mean she is turned on and I become attractive to her in this mean sort of way? I guess that since she was looking for a BAD GUY, when she knows A GOOD GUY would be the one to treat her like she deserves to be treated.

SO YEA lets compare for a moment...."Bad Guy"= A Bad Guy(Thug)...Will not call you everyday to see how you are doing, He will not go somewhere with you and always pick up the tab, Don't worry about him opening doors for you and surprising you with the littlest of gifts he will not be the one you can call on when you just need to talk, or if you needed someone to confide in. He will not be the one to ask you everyday he's sees you are you okay and is there anything you want to get off your chest you know I'm here for you....

SO WHAT IS THE ATTRACTION??? Do you women who go for the Bad Guys like being mistreated? This girl told me that the idea of having a Bad Guy is knowing that the dude want be to clingy and he will not fall for her as fast and she will have time to be to herself...But then when that happens her FACEBOOK STATUS will change and she will be talking down on him saying how he mistreats her and how he doesn't care for her but isn't that what she asked FOR???

(~Now Enters THE GOOD GUY~)...Good Guy(Too Nice Guy)...This guy will make it his personal duty to make sure that the only time the girl he is with cries is when she watches a sad movie and even then he will be there for her to use his shoulder. He will never mislead her and will try his Best to take care of everything for her the best way he can. These guys are usually not most girls type but why not want a guy who will be there for you?

Girls will complain about not spending time with the Bad Guy but when the Good Guy comes they complain about him spending to much time. They complain about him caring too much about them....WTF?? How can someone care too much? So you saying a girl would rather go through rough times with a dude then to be happy with their man. But then why do they change their statuses on FaceBook when they get done wrong? I guess they like the extra attention of people being in their business. But don't like being the center of attention for their BFs?? WTF is wrong with people?

I feel that a woman should want for the best and receive the best. If you have a guy who is willing to drop everything to spend time with you, or to talk to you then you have a keeper. If you can call/text your dude and when he replies and you smile then yo have a keeper. If he tells you he thought about you tell him you thought about him so his call wont go unanswered. I respect girls having a type of guy they like but everyone needs a change. What type of person doesn't like to be treated right?

Anyway this is only my opinion so let me know what you think?

The idea of KIDS

Lets See...umm....Kids!!!!

• Ok, Ok, Ok I hate kids but that don't mean I don't want none of my own to pass on my "O" legacy to...I remember when my little cousins were about 1...2...and 3, I thought that was the best thing because I used to teach them how to add and subtract, or spell and shh....but 4 years passed by quickly and THEY GOT BADDDDDDD!!!!!! Oh shh cursing reciting lines from Boondocks and saying they got Boyfriends and Girlfriends....I swear my little cousin got suspended for jumping on a table in class and singing "Booty Butt Cheeks"...I was like damn what happened...hitting me with ice while im sleep, jacking my money, and throwing rocks and shh at cars...I think they are the three spawns of Satan.
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  But all is well because my kids are going to be different I want two a Boy and a Girl. Now people know how I despise gay people someone asked what if my son was gay...Wowow...ummmm thats a good question, I dont think I could claim him lol....Im sorry but I just an't get down like that its gone be my son and imma love him but i just can't accept that lifestyle....My daughter on the other hand I rather her be one of those nerdy little girls that the dudes walk by so I don't have to worry about Boyfriends lol... Or she can be a dike...cuz then she want get pregnant or no dudes trying to sneak in the house and shh...lol I know I WAS ONCE ONE OF THOSE...
  
  
• But I guess since I'm a guy im going to have a biased opinion becuase i want my son to be a ladies man, and have girls calling the house all times at night lol...I WILL BE PROUD, if a dude does call my daughter it better be after 6 and before 7...lol and she can only talk till 6:55.... But yea I KNOW A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WHO CLAIM THEY DON'T Want anything to do with kids but these are the immature acting ones. Now if someone can give me a valid reason for not wanting kids they will gain my respect if not....then get out of here with that. My name will be carried on and my son/daughter will be great...lol...
  
  But I guess I can't speak for everyone when I say having kids are great, and the stuff you can teach them will make you feel as if you achieved greatness...SO whats your take????

Big Ups TO ALL MY HATERS!

Lets see...ummm....Haters!!

Ok, Ok, Ok...I know what you all are thining what does he mean by hater...am I right??

• My personal definition of a hater is one who sees you happy and wish for your happiness to be ended. I have had countless number of girls try to tell me to break up with my girl, "She not me", "why you with her", and "She cant do what I do". To tell the truth quite frankly Im tired of it!!! I mean yea they are right with saying one of those she is neither of them and THATS WHY I'M WITH HER!!!HA!(IF YOU DONT KNOW THE LAUGH...LEARN IT)!!!
• It makes the females look bad for the simple fact they're acting mighty desperate and it's funny to me. I can walk to the cafeteria or from class and be holding hands with MY BOO, and females will give all these "Fuck him" looks...lol which I FIND FUNNY... I mean if they spent less time worrying about who I'm with and more time on school or their appearance they would be with somebody. My BOO is MY BOO, and we're going on 5months now and yea this is only the beginning for us we have many months and years to go so...if you dont like it
• DON'T READ THIS SHH TWICE....
• Secondly some dudes at my school will mug you till their eyes fall out but I FIND IT FACETICOUS!!! I mean its one thing t look and say whats up, but to just stare is straight HOMO! This one dude sees me and just mugs then when I say whats up to his retarded ass he just looks and walks away...wtf??!!! Also this nigga NAMED FELTON...WHO STUDDERS...gone say that GTP(my group) needs better lyrics.....HOW THE FUCK CAN A NIGGA WHO CAN BARELY TALK SAY THAT SHH??.... He must've not heard Grindology 101, The World in My Palm or HANDSDOWN!!!!! But then again no disrespect to you all who ONLY LISTEN to club bangers but if thats all you listen to don't complain about lyrics IM SO SERIOUS!!
• And then theres the RAPPERS some rappers at my school are cool but then others are SILLY and should never be allowed to do anything. Also some silly producers on that elevator music beats shh....im just saying if you think its hot thats you...but don't come to me with the bull....oh and WE ARE IN COLLEGE SO YEA...HOW MANY NIGGAS IN COLLEGE GOT MONEY LIKE THAT??? Anyways SHOUTS OUT TO CHAD's EP(UNDTFD) dropping soon (http://toofly2die.com) .....and J Cash mixtapes dropping...can't think of anyones else so let me know if your dropping one I WANT TO COLLAB...DOn't Be a Hater!!LMAO...Well back to grinding...BYE

Thought Provoking Question: If you were offered a chance to forget everyone you knew and to start life over with new friends, new situations, and a new family would you leave everything behind a do it??

Idea of GAME

Lets see...ummm...G-A-M-E!

• Game is nothing more then a state of mind, Most dudes take "having game" to an extreme level. I head this one dude tell this girl "Let me pay your cell bill, and get you some polish on them nails, and we can take it slow like SNAILS"!!! WTF??LMAO I laughed till I cried. Whats so bad about it we were in line at Churches Chicken, I didn't know cats could get play at a chicken joint, and what do you know....SHE GAVE HIM HER NUMBER. So I thought to myself maybe game is in the eye of the beholder or some shh like that. It has to be...I asked a few peeps what they felt about GAME, and umm yea never again. Girls got offended, Dudes leeped for joy. WTF is wrong with people what happened to the good ole days where we just stated our intentions up front?
• Now we got people who say they have more game then the NBA, yea right! I even listened in secretly on a few ppl conversation from time to time just to see the dudes approach here goes an average convo I heard
• GUY:SO what up with it

GIRL:Hey, whats up
GUY: SHH...trying to see what you about
GIRL:Oh yea, Y whats so special about me?

THIS IS WHERE GAME GETS OUT OF HAND:
GUY:Your eyes! I can tell you been hurt and im just trying to be the man who protects you!!!

I WISH DEATH UPON BOTH OF THEM!!LMFAO!!! WOW

• Her for allowing him to say such rubish, and him for even thinking that would work, all the girl did was smile and get up...and walked AWAY! SO what is game??

• I think Game is how your present yourself. It's in the same boat as having a good first impression, or leaving a lasting impression. Your words should make someone feel they can trust you from the jump. Believe if a girl feel that your lying to her from the jump then you can kiss your chances goodbye.
• I feel that if you can come off honest and say something like "I really don't know where this will lead but I will try to make it last, I believe i can do that with you"...YOU LIKE THAT???!!LOL NO??? FORGET YOU THEN!! but still its better then "Girl if you were words on a page you'll be fine print" or "Call me Fred Flintstone I can make your BEDROCK" that shh is silly so yea...Back to making music...BYE

What Do you Think???


Thought Provoking Question: If Life give you Lemons, how would you handle it? Or better yet what would you make of it, if Lemonade wasn't a choice?